I was heartbroken to hear that I have become the selfish, toxic person in my loved ones lives. In my younger days, I thought that I was a calming force in my relationships. I prided myself on being even keeled and laid back – thankful for everything that I had and always finding the good in situations and people. I aspired to be that cliche person who lit up the room when they entered. For a time, I think I was making my way toward that person- at home, at work, with friends. Regrettably, I have neglected to reevaluated this aspect of myself in quite some time and jittery negativity has taken root. Therefore, in addition to the goals of becoming a better mom, finding employment, and eventually earning my SO’s respect back, scribble in regain positivity/lose pestilence. I anticipate that a positive outlook will alleviate the nerves and panic that have taken hold. We’ll see…
Enter Reiki
To rid myself of this cynical, defeatist aura or more accurately – blocked chakra, I decided to try Reiki. In my first session, I literally shocked the practitioner as my negative energy unloaded. I picture her releasing(?) my chakra and the toxic spark literally jumped right out of me.
Additionally, one’s Throat Chakra, located in, you guessed it – one’s throat – encapsulates communication, which has always evaded me. During and after the session, my throat had become eerily soar, though the pain receded temporarily when I apologize to my SO during a notable conversation. More recently, I could swallow cleanly when I walked away from a potentially charged situation. Hmmm…
The practitioner taught me to perform Reiki on Batman and Robin before bed. And I have been using a program I found online to administer Reiki on myself. This has been quite helpful especially if I have time to steal away during anxiety provoking situations.
I am game to become an outstanding influence on my little superheros so they thrive in their top notch ecosystem. Maybe Reiki will help.